What's UP?

So what's up?
Not much with me.
Cept my Valentines Day sucked!
But that's no reason to be bitter.
I don't like bitter people.
They're just so...bitter!

When I walked down the hall yesterday,
I couldn't help but have the Valentines Day blues
I saw girls with balloons tied to their wrists
Couples leaning against lockers swallowing face
And my stomach just dropped
I've never felt more left out
But I sorta brought this upon myself
In a way
Because I spend the rest of year
Glaring at boys who nod at me
Or try to form conversation
In fear that if I accept them as more than a friend
My grades will flush down the toilet
And I'll spend all my time
Trying to make them happy
And I'll do something I regret
Or something that completely contradicts
My personal values and morals
I've seen it happen

I don't trust myself enough to have a boyfriend
And if I don't even trust myself
There's no WAY I'll confide in a boy
Who probably doesn't even like me THAT much
And probably only wants one thing


I'd rather have one day a year of loneliness
Then disappoint myself the rest of the year
By choosing the wrong "one"
Like I said...I don't really trust myself that much
And plus I haven't lived long enough
To read boys or know when they're playing me
Or if they're really like me

So as most might say
I'm staying on the "safe side"
Because there's no use in getting into something
I know little about
I'll live and I'll learn
Ya know?

Anyways I'm glad there's no school today
Even though President's Day
Doesn't really mean much to me
Because as far as I'm concerned
We can't seem to find the right one anyway

Peace.